Stress and Christmas

I am too stressed to talk politics so here's a cross-section of my brain right now.

So here we are just a few weeks till x-mas and I am feeling the holiday stress in full force. My Grandmother came out from New York to visit before Thanksgiving and that was the beginning of stress central. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to have a normal family, but where is the fun in that? Not having a job still eats at me on a regular basis, while what I am doing now has me out of the house and is quite fulfilling it is not a paying job and can only fill my basic needs.

I find myself in a weird rut, I am pretty happy in my current situation but there is still that nagging feeling that I am 30 and still haven't found a real direction or purpose for my existence I am doing my best to put it in God's hands and wait for his signal but oh is it hard. I just hope I didn't miss the train...

New Diggs

OK, so I moved, not out of Victorville unfortunately but it is a change in scenery. I am just getting settled so posting may be slim for a week or two but I promise I will be back before the year ends. I know there is plenty to write about. Obama being a given...

We have a winner!

And it's not who I wanted. But it's over and I'm not gonna piss and moan about it. I am however going to watch closely and hope President Elect Obama makes good choices. Now I know that's not likely to happen but we have to keep moving forward. Part of being American is having a hope for the future, I know that's one of Obama's buzz words but the idea of hope in America is much older than Obama. We are still a light on a hill. It may dim a little over the next 4 years but I believe America will live on and we will still be an example for the world. So take a deep breath and lets keep truckin.

Black Out

So I have been on a news black out for almost a week and I have to say... IT'S GREAT. I know it won't last but not hearing Obama whine or McCain say "my friends" has really given me time to sleep, read, catch up with old friends and spend time with new ones. Not to mention I am just happier. So come Wednesday morning when I pop on Rush I am gonna limit my politics time. Too much makes you crazy and as you can see in my last post I have enough stress in my life as is. Plus (lemme say sorry ahead of time) I prefer spending time with real people (no offence). I'm still gonna post here often as I can, but you are gonna see less politics and more real life.

If you've never done a politics black out you should try it. It will make you appreciate things more and give you clear in-site on how to deal with them. I'm still voting McCain but I won't need to drink before I do it now. Not that I am any more comfortable with the idea of voting for a RINO but he's better than the alternative and that's the best we can hope for right now!

my.life.net

So things have been crazy in my neck of the dirt, to say the least. I've been following politics (of course) and this election is getting real old, real fast. I'm at the point where I am not gonna think about it anymore till the big day. Than I will have a couple drinks and go pull the lever for McCain. Now if you go back in this blog I am sure you will find some post where I was very un-kind to McCain. I have not changed my mind I just can't risk an Obama presidency. Not like my vote matters since I'm in CA and the state will undoubtedly go to BO.

My sister has been diagnosed with a very serious disease and we are going to get a second and probably third opinion. I'm not gonna get into any more detail than that right now but I would appreciate any prayers you could send her way.

My Bible study is homeless right now and might fall apart completely thanks to an A-hole who happened to be the x-husband of the woman's house where we met. When I showed up last Tuesday for Bible study his car was there and their kids were down stairs looking upset while watching cartoons. Probably lucky for me another guy showed up at the same time and we sat down and were surprised by x-hubby and a crying friend coming down the stairs. He told us her friend had died and that's why she was upset, but it was plain as day he was lying through his jerk teeth. Long story short he was arrested later that night for domestic abuse and I might end up in court testifying against him. Oh, and my Bible study is homeless because he made bail and my poor friend has gone into hiding.

Lastly I still can't find a job. I have applied all over the high desert, everywhere from drugstores to Churches. Hundreds of places, literally! Most if the time I don't even get an interview and when I do I always think I nailed it and am a shoe in. Than nothing... I call them and I get the excuse of the day. Bottom line I gotta get out of this desert. The catch 22 of all catch 22's is I can't do it without money and I can't get a job up here, so I am for lack of a better term SCREWED!

Red Edge of a Blue State

So I live in a red county in California, this must be how it feels to be on the base in Guantanamo smack on the edge of Cuba. So when I go down to Havana I mean Los Angeles and see the left in all its glory, there is almost a sick feeling that comes with it. Maybe it's the air, as I come over the mountains and down towards LA I can see the air as it gets thicker and browner. So if LA is a bastion of environmental leftist why is the air so dirty? The dirt seems to follow the left. Take New Orleans for example, or New York City. For a party who claims to care so much about the planet the filth is amazing. Sure I see a good amount of hybrid cars but I still see tons of SUV's, big one with big stupid wheels. The public transportation is downright scary, if you risk getting on a bus or train you are subject to the foulest smells and the most frightening people. Maybe it's the bum sleeping next to you or the punk kid eyeballing your bag, but hey your helping save the planet right?

So I hear you saying "that's just the bad stuff but other places are nicer". That's what you think... Lets take a trip to a bar or nightclub. First you pay an insane amount of money at the door so you can partake in "live music" spun by a DJ. Once you are inside there are a lot of angry people scowling at you. The bartender will let you stand for 15 minutes while he helps all the people at the other side of the bar than overcharges you for watered down booze. SO you take your drink and snake your way to a corner and sip your drink but don't make eye contact with any one because the guys will threaten you and the women give you a dirty look and turn away. Oh and I hope you like hip-hop because that's all they play. But lets go to a restaurant; you walk in and give your name and than wait for 10-20 minutes while you watch empty tables sit empty. Than once you are seated more often than not you sit another 15-20 minutes before some comes to offer you a drink which takes another 10 mins to get to you. Than you sit with your menus piled on the edge of the table for another 15-20 minutes. When the waiter finally comes back he gives you attitude for nothing takes your order and stomps away. Elapse a good 30-40 mins and you get your food, usually cold or not the way you ordered it, but you keep it cause you've been sitting hungry for a good hour and a half and don't want to wait any longer. Now as you are taking your first bites the waiter comes with the check and sets it on the table than disappears never to be seen again.

Now as I head back up the hill back into the desert, I catch a breath of clean air, wave to my neighbor and thank God I live in the Red Edge.

Obamania

In my time I have never seen such fanatical devotion to a presidential candidate. Maybe I just don't like John McCain as much as they like Obama. But I think even if McCain was my ideal candidate I would not go to this kind of extreme. People are so enamored by this mild socialist, people who I know, devoted Christians, who have changed their view on abortion just so they can back Obama. Suddenly, it's "merciful" to "send the baby straight to God (that's what they told me, direct quote) rather than punish it in this horrible world". The whole thing is creepy and odd.

First there's this:

http://proteinwisdom.com/?p=13352#comment-550084

"Here in NYC I just saw a new bumpersticker:

Obama
One Nation
One People

Kinda creeped me out; I wondered why it seemed so familiar…

Poster from 1930’s — from you know where…

Deutschland

Ein Volk
Ein Reich
Ein Fuhrer

I told you all that Axelrod was taking pages from Goebbles playbook…"

And there's the Obama Youth;

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rUEQz5dltmI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kTBq_ybkBmI


Like i said CREEPY!